My Family Knows

Today was such a fun day!!  We woke up this morning and I asked Mike if he wanted to go to lunch with my dad since we didn't have school.  He said yes so I called him.  I was on hold for over 5 minutes.  While I was waiting I asked Mike if we were going to tell him today.  He said yes!  I was so happy.  Holding onto such a huge secret from my parents has been so hard.  When he came to the phone he told me that he already had lunch plans.  So I told him that we'd stop by anyways since I hadn't seen him in a while.

We walked into his office and I started thinking about how I was going to nonchalantly close his door, we never close the door unless we're talking about something serious.  I told dad that I needed his help with a project for school.  I told him that I needed to get a picture of us to make a sample of a family project that my students were making.  I said I didn't have any recent pictures of us...which is true.  Here is the result of our picture.

I was really surprised with how speechless my dad was.  I think he's really really nervous about me having twins.  Don't get me wrong, I am too but I think I just have a super optimistic mind.  Will it be difficult?  YES!  Will we get through?  YES!  Dad called Steph into his office since she has been his support system through all of this.  We showed Steph the video that we took.  She was so excited for us.  We started talking about our worries (childcare, college 2 weddings!) but I just know it is going to all be ok!  I told Dad that he was the first grandparent to find out and he had to keep it quiet.  He asked when I was telling Mom and I told him Saturday.  He suggested that I call Mom and tell her I wanted to go to lunch.  I was nervous to do that because I never go see Mom on days off and I thought she would know something was up.  

I called her and she was really excited to go. PHEW!  Of course she started getting very mom like and asked me where I was going to park.  I'm a big girl mom, I can pay for the lot across the street.  I had Mike drive because I was really nauseous.  On our way there I found a pop in my purse, thank GD!  We got to her office and chatted for a minute.  I then gave her the same speech about needed a picture for my class.  It was a lot easier for me to close the door at her office because there is a conference room across the hall with glass doors.  I told her I didn't need these people watching us to take a picture.  Here's our picture...

Of course we both started crying.  We're Gotteiners for crying out loud!  She was so blown away.  She needed to hear every detail and track it on a calendar so she could figure out what she was doing at the time.  The weight that was lifted once I told her felt amazing.  I hate keeping secrets from my mommy!  I told her all about the blog and how the main reason I kept it was because I wanted her to know everything and couldn't believe that I couldn't talk to her.  I told her that I wanted to tell Bob, not her.  I said that if she didn't think she could hold this in until Saturday I'd do it on FaceTime, but I left it up to her.  We had such a great lunch, it warmed my heart to see how happy she was! 

We came home and looked up our flight to Philly.  Mike was in Austin over the weekend and before he left he told me that I might have to book the flight for us, but he never told me to.  So when we looked up the flight it was $900!!!  That is A LOT of money for a less than 36 hour trip home.  Mike was so upset.  I'm really upset for him.  He wants to have the same experience with his family that I had with mine.  Now my parents know and we won't be able to fly out for a month, exactly what we were trying to avoid.  I told him to call his mom and just see what she said about the flight.  She said exactly what Mike thought, it's just too much money.  I wanted to scream into the phone I'M PREGNANT AND WE WANT TO TELL YOU IN PERSON!  But I didn't :).  So now we are going to have to tell Mike's family over FaceTime.  I feel so bad but I know that there is nothing we can do.  It's still going to be exciting.

I told Mike I'd text his mom and tell her that she needed to call or text us when David got home from work because I needed a picture of the 3 of them for my class and showing them how we can communicate through the computer would be cool.  I think she bought it.  Now the problem is there is a snowstorm coming out east and Meichelle was driving to New York this afternoon for a dog show.  She isn't going to be home until tomorrow night.  So now we wait some more.

8:10 PM
So we got to try out how FaceTime would work with Mike's parents tonight.  I got a text from my mom saying that she was dying and needed to tell Bob!  So we did!!!  I was really nervous that he would be offended that we didn't tell him in person but he was so excited.  Getting him to agree to take the picture was a battle that I didn't think I'd have to face.  I gave him the same story about how I needed a picture for school, but Bob wanted to send me one.  He didn't want me to take his picture in a hoodie!  Oy Vey Bob!  This isn't a fashonista moment!!  WE'RE ABOUT TO TELL YOU THAT WE'RE PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Here it is!!

Ultrasound Day

Mike and I had our first ultrasound today. I was so nervous all week. I haven't had strong cases of nausea this week. I thought that meant I for sure lost the baby. 

Also, Tuesday I had the most stressful day since I started all of this (short version: we went on a field trip to the museum of science and industry. Kyle is in Puerto Rico. A mom of one of my most challenging students canceled on me because she had a headache, they decided to send the social worker with me, the mom of my other challenging student lost her own son at the museum, I found him kicking garbage cans and the mom that hates me came.). If that doesn't make you lose a pregnancy I don't know what will. 

So today Mike and I met at FCI at 1:15. When Mike got there he told me that Doug had just texted him a screenshot of Mike's location on Find My Friends asking if he was coming over for lunch since Mike was on the highway. Why is Doug looking at find my friends at 1:00 in the afternoon?!?!?!  Fuck! Oh well!  I told Mike to just not respond. Sorry Doug!

We got called back to ultrasound. The tech put in the wand and.....

I'M PREGNANT WITH TWINS!!!!!!

As much as I knew it was highly possible it still surprised me!  We got to see their little heart beats. Baby A was beating at 102 bmp and Baby B was beating at 110 bmp. The tech told us in all her experience that if throughout ultrasounds there is that gap of heartbeat we most likely have one of each!!!!  I also found out that my pregnancy app was wrong. I am 6 weeks pregnant today. It's just 2 little grains of rice in there. That means we're due October 8th which I believe was Savannah's due date. I looked at the calendar and we'll be able to tell my extended family on Passover, just like Michael and Lauren. How weird is that?!?!

We are both so excited but now so nervous!! How are we all going to fit in our place? How will we afford day care?Which one will go to college? So many unanswered questions. But I know of we couldn't handle this it wouldn't be given to us. 

Baby A

Baby A heartbeat

Baby B

Baby B heartbeat

This is Getting Real!!

Yesterday I entered week 6!

I went back to the doctor today to check my HCG and progesterone.  My progesterone went up to 22 and my HCG is at 2900!!  I really am pregnant!!  Next Mike and I go in for an ultrasound next Thursday.  I think we will find out how many babies are in there then.  I emailed the nurse asking if we will.

Morning Sickness SUCKS!!!

After talking to Lindsay and Amanda it doesn't sound like what I've been going through is the worst of it yet.  Yes I told Amanda.  I am hungry which is good.  Then I eat.  Then I feel incredibly nauseous.  I haven't thrown up yet but the queasiness is awful.  I opened the box that Amanda gave me in the beginning of the year that said to not open until I needed to.  She gave me all these pregnancy pops.  They're lollipops and hard candy that are supposed to help with morning sickness.  Guess what THEY DO!  Last night I felt really sick after dinner and I had one.  I felt so much better!!

Today at school after lunch I felt AWFUL!  Probably the worst I have felt so far.  I could barely hold my head up and didn't know how I was going to teach my math lesson.  Kyle did read aloud for me so I could try to breathe and feel better.  It didn't work.  He was getting ready to go to the resource room for Math.  I almost started crying because I felt so terrible.  I told him I was feeling so sick...and it was because I was pregnant.  I knew I had to tell him before other people.  We are together all the time and he would know something was up.  Today I needed to go home and get a pregnancy pop.  Kyle looked at me and said DONE!  He taught my whole math class so I could go home and get what I needed.  Lesson learned...keep pregnancy pops in my work bag!!!

I think we decided when we're telling our parents and siblings.  We're going to tell my mom, dad, Bob and Ellen the weekend after Valentine's Day, and we are going to go to Philly the last weekend of February.  Then we'll come back home and tell Jenn, Doug, and Jordan.  I can't wait!!!!!

New Test Results

Mike and I trudged through the snow today to get to Dr. Kaplan's.  I had an appointment tomorrow but I would rather go when I don't have work.  I was also very nervous about what the results would be and I didn't want to hear them alone again.  Jill from Dr. Kaplan called at 2:20.  She said my HCG has gone up to over a 1000.  They want it to double every 2-3 days and mine did more than that.  Which is good.  Does the high number mean twins?  I need to stop thinking like that.  The thing that has me worried is Jill said my progesterone dropped.  I don't understand how that is possible if I haven't changed any of my dosages.  She said I'm at 20 and they want it to be over 10.  She also said that progesterone fluctuates so not to worry, but of course I do.

I have had some more trouble with nausea this whole weekend.  It hasn't been unbearable but it hasn't been fun either.  I also have gotten tired a lot.  School was so hard last week with how exhausted I was.  I hope it doesn't get worse this week.

I go back to the doctor on Thursday morning.  Hopefully everything goes up!!

Moms need to Know

Mike and I had a LONG conversation last night about telling our parents.  First we decided that we for sure aren't telling anyone until we have our first ultrasound at FCI.  He wants to make sure we tell his family in person.  I totally understand that.  Telling people over the phone or FaceTime just won't have the same effect.  We want to celebrate with everyone.

What I didn't think about was the timing between telling our parents.  I will be ready to tell them both right after our ultrasound.  Since we're going to go to Philly to tell them Mike wants to wait to tell my parents until close to when we leave for Philly.  I didn't realize it at first but it just isn't fair for some of our parents to know way before the others.  We looked at the calendar.  Mike is going out of town Valentine's Day weekend so we will need to go to Philly after that.  The weekend of the 20th is Amanda's Shower.  The weekend after that we have Lucio's pop up restaurant dinner.  So it looks like we will be going the first weekend of March.  AHHHHH!!!  Can we wait that long??  I seriously never thought I'd hide pregnancy from my parents for so long but it looks like we are.  I hope they truly understand our reasons why.  I hope all our parents and friends forgive us for lying to them for so long.

I went to dinner with Katie and Becky on Tuesday night.  They asked what was going on with me and I totally lied and said we needed to pick a date for transfer but now it's seeming too real and we need to wait a little.  I THINK they bought it but I don't know.

We had Sarah's birthday brunch today.  I was starving when I got there and ate a ton.  I wasn't going to stay out with Sarah after brunch and she understood.  After brunch I got incredibly nauseous and tired.  I came home and napped on the couch for almost 3 hours.  I did some reading about morning sickness.  The article I read said it typically starts around week 6, but if you have multiples it could start earlier.  Is this why I got nauseous today?  Are there 2 little sesame seeds in there?

The Results are In

Jill from Dr. Kaplan just called. If my test is positve my HCG should be over 25, I'm at 320 something!!!!!  I'm pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok now I need to think of a cute way to tell mike.....

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So I raced home after school to make sure I beat him here.  I knew that I had 1 pregnancy test under our sink.  I took it, cleaned it up and put it on his computer.  I started stalking him on Find My Friends to see where he was and he was less than a mile away.  I sat on the couch ready with my video camera to capture the moment.

We sat and cried together and got so excited!!  I downloaded a pregnancy app and according to it I am 5 weeks pregnant.  My due date is September 30th.  This is all so nuts!!!!!

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Stress isn't good for me but I'm freaking out!

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